Monday, April 10, 2006

Part of the Journey


This is my Mom.
She was born in February, 1923, so I assume this picture was taken later that year.

She's now 83 and living in a nursing home after living a full life. After her stroke last October, she can't swallow, which prevents her from speaking or eating.
Ever again.

She is suffering from a deepening depression. Yesterday, while my sister and I sat with her trying to cheer her up, she wrote to me, "I WANT TO DIE." That's the first time she has said that. It was tough to hear (read). We could only comfort her and tell her that God will take her when He's ready.

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I am sober now and can be with my mother as she nears the end of her journey

for the absolutely wonderful life she has given me

that I have finished with the trash/dumpster part of cleaning out her home

for a productive Lambda Center Board meeting Saturday afternoon

that I try not to exxagerate the truth now that I am sober

that I am able to help an ill recovery friend today when he leaves the hospital

An ounce of loyalty is worth a pound of cleverness.
-Elbert Hubbard

9 comments:

NMAMFQLMSH said...

Your post regarding your Mom touched me to the point of tears. ((((dAAve)))))

As for the weather you are having I am soooooooo jealous though today it is wonderful out...bout time.
I see you,
JJ

Shannon said...

I am soo sorry to read that about your mom... I am sending you a hug daave... and of course she and you and your sister are in my prayers... have a good daay!

Trudging said...

Wow, that had to be hard for you.

Daily Piglet said...

I share in your emotions about your Mom. My Dad was so tired of being in pain and uncomfortable. He told me before his last hospital stay while we were in the emergency room that if this is all there is, he wanted to go. I told him if that is what he wanted, I would love him through it. It is hard.

Here's a hug (((((dave)))))), and know my thoughts are with you and your sister.

Kenny said...

I'm so sorry about your mother. Hope it's just a funk that she'll get out off.

You're being such a wonderful son to her, sober and clean.

Mary Christine said...

dAAve, thanks for sharing about your mom. That is painful. I am so grateful that she has you, a sober responsible son, in her life. More vitual hugs from MC.

lash505 said...

How proud she must be of you...

Grateful said...

I'm glad you shared this instead of drinking over it. You are not the only one benefitting from your recovery. God bless

Scott said...

dAAve, how wonderful it is for you to be there for her, to help comfort her through this difficult time. I can't imagine how difficult this must be but I will be praying for you, your mom and your sister, for God's will through all of this.

Here's a big hug from Ohio, hang in there and please keep sharing your gratitude and your stuff. You're really truly helping others as well as yourself!