Showing posts with label integrity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label integrity. Show all posts

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Step 3



todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for the power behind Step 3.  We talk about surrendering to win.  Well, Step 3 is where this happens (for this alkie).  The obsession to drink to get drunk was lifted when and only when I surrendered my drinking life to my newly-conceived Higher Power.  I gave up.  I was done (Mary Christine wrote about this yesterday).  Make no mistake, without that HP which began to develp in Step 2, the lifting of that obsession would never have happened.
And to me, surrender means I don't take it back.  It's genuine, it's real, it's sincere.  And it's forever (I hope).

for peace of mind in a chaotic world

for my willingness and faith to stay in integrity

that we're finally getting some proper autumn weather and temperatures in these parts, good buddy

I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.
- Maya Angelou

Tuesday, November 01, 2011

11-1-11




todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for people who are real; those with integrity

for people with a sober history; I like to hear them talk

for people who walk the talk; they teach me how to act

for people who don't take themselves too seriously; they make me comfortable


You are what you do, not what you say you'll do.
- Carl Jung

Thursday, July 07, 2011

leading a colorful life











todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that we all have different personalities; otherwise, life would be so dull and boring!

that good things just keep happening in my life especially when I don't expect it

that so many of my life experiences can help me today, if I only keep it all in perspective

for honesty and integrity in myself and others


A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity;
an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty.
- Winston Churchill



Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I woke up sober today (again).



todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I don't wake up in the morning feeling a need to re-invent the wheel

to be able to see/recognize progress in others

that I have integrity - something crucial for my self-esteem

for this -- (overheard at my AA club) -- "A friend was given an award for his humility. When he accepted it, they took it away from him."


Everyone believes that their beliefs are the right ones - that is why they are called beliefs.

Wednesday, March 02, 2011

Mid-Week GrrrrrratiTude!



todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

as today begins, I can't help but thank all of the people who will teach me something today. My job is to pay attention.

for people in the program who are willing to do whatever it takes to recover from the disease of alcoholism

for those with courage and integrity

that I haven't found a reason to misbehave today (yet). Of course, it's only 5am.


Simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse and regret.
- don Miguel Angel Ruiz


Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Principles



todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I got to see my good friend, Jessie J. yesterday morning after about a month of absences from our morning meeting. He is to undergo major surgery today but the prognosis is good. He's a fine example of recovery and this experience will add to his 29 years of sobriety.

for Step 1 and all its implications; it's amazing how long it took me to recognize how unmanageable my life had become during my 33 years of alcoholic drinking.

for the principles of honesty, faith, integrity and compassion. Now, if I can just remember to practice them.

for others


Real excellence and humility are not incompatible one with the other, on the contrary they are twin sisters.
- Jean Baptiste Lacordaire


Friday, May 21, 2010

just visiting


men can fix anything!






todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for those who suit up and show up; especially when they announce it beforehand and then follow through

that my friend Todd celebrates 365 days of sobriety today. I got to meet Todd twice when visitng NYC. He's a sweet as they come.

for a nice visit with my sister and her significant other yesterday in rural Texas

for the 5 years that Mary Christine wrote about her experience, strength and hope

that I met 5 old high school friends last night at a small bar near our old school. We found each other on Facebook and decided to get together. I had not seen any of them in 38 years. I'm so glad I have not aged as much as they have.

Never miss a chance to keep your mouth shut.
- Robert Newton Peck

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Staying fresh



todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for a sponsee who gets it

for those who do what they say they're gonna do -- it's called integrity! Those who don't do what they say they're gonna do provide me with pertinent information about themselves.

that I've really been enjoying my life recently. It was just a few years ago that I was passing out every night after drinking all day (most days I drank 12-15 hours). I thought I was so lucky to be able to drink that way. Nobody, I mean nobody, got in my way.

for the (usually) intangible lessons I pick up in Al-Anon meetings.

The trouble with the rat race is that even if you win, you're still a rat.
- Lily Tomlin

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

just typing thru


  • an oldie but a goodie (IMHO)

    Sally was driving home from one of her business trips in Northern Arizona when she saw an elderly Navajo woman walking on the side of the road.

    As the trip was a long and quiet one, she stopped the car and asked the Navajo woman if she would like a ride.

    With a silent nod of thanks, the woman got into the car.

    Resuming the journey, Sally tried in vain to make a bit of small talk with the Navajo woman. The old woman just sat silently, looking intently at everything she saw, studying every little detail, until she noticed a brown bag on the seat next to
    Sally.

    'What in bag?' asked the old woman.

    Sally looked down at the brown bag and said, 'It's a bottle of wine. I got it for my husband.'

    The Navajo woman was silent for another moment or two. Then speaking with the quiet wisdom of an elder, she said:

    'Good trade.....'


    todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

    for in-depth conversations with sponsees

    that I know my limitations, although I don't always remember them

    that Step 10 helps me to practice these principles in all my affairs ...
  • honesty
  • hope
  • faith
  • courage
  • integrity
  • willingness
  • humility
  • compassion
  • discipline
  • perseverance
  • awareness of my HP
  • service

    First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.
    - Mahatma Gandhi

Friday, July 24, 2009

Surprise ...

video

todAAy i AAM grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I don't need to look for any reason to drink. Nothing, absolutely nothing, will get better if I drink.

for integrity, which begins at home

that my friend, Mary Christine, celebrates 25 consecutive years of living without alcohol today!

that I can slow myself down when I'm under the weather; my instinct is to just keep attacking life

that I should have a nice weekend, punctuated by a speaker meeting in Austin tomorrow night (I get to be the speaker!)


To fear is one thing. To let fear grab you by the tail and swing you around is another.
- Katherine Paterson

Tuesday, July 07, 2009

stepping forward



todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

to those with courage in any of its forms

for the positive results of stepping through the unknown to get to the other side

to know that half measures won't work for me if I want to stay serene

that I must exhibit some integrity if I am to be the sponsor I wish to be

that I am not attending Michael Jackson's Memorial today, but will probably see a little bit of it on the telly (@ Lambda Center)

When it is dark enough, you can see the stars.
- Charles A. Beard
I am Curious ... From what I've read, MJ's estate is still worth a net of about $500 million. Yet he had filed for bankruptcy. How does this occur? Any accountants out there who can 'splain this to me?
And why can't his estate pay the cost of security in LA for this memorial service?

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Guides along the way

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for the Principles behind the Steps;


  • honesty

  • hope

  • faith

  • courage

  • integrity

  • willingness

  • humility

  • compassion

  • discipline

  • perseverance

  • spirituality

  • service
the my perceptions oftentimes have nothing to do with reality

that we'll read another of the stories in the back half of The Big Book this morning at the 6:30am meeting

for the financial ability to pay my bills

Elbow grease is the best polish.
-English Proverb

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Remembering





I haven't written about my newest acquisition. I've always been fascinated by cars, especially the 1950's and 60's autos which I grew up with. I bought this one a couple of months ago and it's now ready for the Houston streets.

It's a 1965 Buick Riviera. For those in the know, it has a 401 cubic inch Nailhead with 340 bhp and dual 4bbl carbueretors under the hood. The clock is the only thing that isn't working (yet).

My 1967 Thunderbird is now for sale. Any takers?


todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I'm willing to be responsible for my mistakes

for my lifetime hero, my high school track coach, who taught me about integrity

that I'm thankful and grateful
for the signifigance of today's date -- remember how it brought all of us together?

that we're about as ready and stocked up as we can be for Hurricane Ike.
(we ain't going anywhere and my hope is that if we have high winds, they will be from the east and/or south where we have the best protection in our home and newly landscaped yard)
The last really big hurricane (Carla) hit the greater Houston area on this date in 1961.

We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit. -Aristotle

Thursday, July 10, 2008

take 2




todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for people with integrity

for the concept of keeping my mouth shut more often than it used to be, although I still have a lot of work to do on this

that I've got it so good all the time and can remember that fact most of the time

that I find most commitments pretty damn easy to keep

that we get another opportunity to close on the house today; a paperwork technicality derailed the closing yesterday

DESIRE/MOTIVATION

"We are told that talent creates its own opportunities. But it sometimes seems that intense desire creates not only its own opportunities, but its own talents."
-- Eric Hoffer

"A man must be obedient to the promptings of his innermost heart."
-- Robertson Davies

"The starting point of all achievement is desire. Keep this constantly in mind. Weak desire brings weak results, just as a small amount of fire makes a small amount of heat."
-- Napoleon Hill

"The significance of a man is not in what he attains, but rather what he longs to attain."
-- Khalil Gibran

Thursday, April 17, 2008

today's list




todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that Kenny -- RECOVERY ROAD - celebrated his 4th year of sobriety yesterday. I had the fortunate opportunity to meet Kenny last July while I was in London. We met at a pub, of course.

that I had the opportunity to chair a meeting yesterday in which I read aloud There Comes a Time. This writing is about a fellow AA members' spiritual awakening. You can link to it by clicking on the title above and it is also linked on my sidebar. I think it's one of the most powerful writings I have read (yet) about recovery from this addictive disease.

that I rarely try to fool any of the people any of the time any more

that today is National blah blah blah Day. (click for more info)
Celebrate accordingly.

that Hayden and I are continuing to pick out stuff for the new house. Yesterday we picked the bathroom and kitchen fixtures. Today is supposed to be light fixtures and ceiling fans. We'll see.


Wisdom is the reward you get for a lifetime of listening when you’d have preferred to talk.
-Doug Larson

Monday, March 24, 2008

taking a breath, then continuing

Need new sheets?



todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that my Mom just keeps on hanging in there; she was able to remain alert again for the hour I visited on Saturday

for people who actually do what they say they are going to do

for the irony of a Sunday morning discussion meeting about fellowship, and then spending the entire day alone

for Steps 6 & 7 -- since there is no operation that allows a doctor to remove my character defects

that Hayden arrives tomorrow for a week-long visit

for my cats

"Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up."
-- Thomas Edison

Friday, February 08, 2008

exposed


It's L.U.E.Y. weekend here in Montrose (Houston) Texas. I don't participate, but my significant other does.


Leather anyone?

CLICK HERE to find out what's happening.



todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

to realize that my less-than-good attitude can be as harmful to others as any other of my bad behaviors and actions

for the role models in my life

for my AA friend Ron, who broke his leg for the 2nd time in the past 6 months. Maybe he should not have bought that new Harley.

that my motives are almost always good

that my sponsor usually answers his phone or at least calls me back. I've heard of many sponsors who don't do either of those. They have nothing I want.

for integrity

that I've never been denied a visa to enter a country; see Amy Winehouse

for some immense assistance from a program friend

When I kick God out of the rooms of AA, alcohol will bring me back in.
~~ heard in a meeting

Monday, September 17, 2007

Integrity ...




is the fifth principle behind the Twelve Steps of Alcohol Anonymous.

I am a nut about following the rules. This can be evidenced by the fact that I was a baseball umpire for a decade. I also officiated a number of other sports, but not as obsessively. I knew the rule book (which is quite complicated) forward and backward.

I try to take the concept of honesty seriously. I try to obey the rules and the law. When I screw up (I often do), I don't try to hide it (usually). There's still a lot of room for improvement here. But becuase I am sober, I am aware of this need to improve and am also able to make progress from time to time.

If you must judge me, please make that judgement by my actions rather than my words.


todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that Saturday was my friend Sonny's twenty-fifth sober anniversary -- Sonny runs Lambda Center as its only full-time employeee for the past 20? years

for a beautiful weather day on Sunday, although we stayed home and had a quiet day

for my relationship with my sponsor -- he DOES NOT try to run my life nor would I allow that. He knows my story and he knows me. I can talk to him without reservation about anything and I think he feels that he can confide in me too. He gives me suggestions and then lets me decide what to do. This is my idea of the proper AA sponsor-sponsee relationship.

that Hayden and I have recently spent a lot of quality time together

that I have now owned my home for 4 years -- I closed on it Sept 15, 2003 and moved in on Sept 20th -- just a few days after getting sober

In pursuit of happiness, the difficulty lies in knowing when you have caught up.
-R.H. Grenville

BY THE WAY - on Saturday, I received the much-and-always coveted
Inspirational Blogger Award from Pam



Friday, May 25, 2007

Removing layers


The A.A. Meeting ...

The more I focus my mind on on its defects -- late start, long drunkalog, cigarette smoke -- the worse the meeting becomes. But when I try to see what I can add to the meeting, rather than what I can get out of it, and when I focus my mind on what's good about it, rather than what's wrong with it, the meeting keeps getting better and better.

When I focus on what's good today, I have a good day, and when I focus on what's bad, I have a bad day. If I focus on a problem, the problem increases; if I focus on the answer, the answer increases.

ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, (4th edition) page 419


todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for a very informative and productive meeting with the nursing and administrative staff at my Mom's nursing home

for some occasional calm amidst the chaos

for the willingness to evolve in a more positive way instead of remaining static

that I don't intentionally break the law

that I am hosting a small AA meeting in my home today

Every man has three characters: that which he shows, that which he has, and that which he thinks he has.
-Alphonse Karr