Perceptions & Realities

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that tomorrow is my Mom's 84th birthday - unfortunately she must spend it in bed as the result of a stroke - unable to speak or eat. Yet she occasionally shows a spark of life and awareness which reminds me that her HP is not yet ready for her. I'll spend a little time with her and hold her hand. When I ask, she will squeeze my hand as tightly as she can and we look at each other and smile.

for a nice breakfast with my sponsor; in our 3 1/2 years together, we have really become good friends and seem to be able to talk about anything going on in our lives, with no fear of any negative consequences. He does, however, caution me from time to time about my behavior and thinking and I can take it without any resentment. This is new stuff for this old alkie.

for an AHA!! moment while watching an old movie - "Cactus Flower" -- I realized how grateful I am that the man I love is not the nymphomaniac that my brain sometimes imagines; in fact, he is the opposite

for more insight from my therapist who has given me some things to work on over the next few days and weeks (Who am I kidding? They are things I need to work on for the rest of my life!)

that the pitchers and catchers report to spring training today for the 46th season of The Hosuton Astros

I am out of town and will be back before you know it - maybe tomorrow, maybe not. I may be able to post on here, maybe not. If you can't handle that, call your sponsor.

"I was told once... in all your awful relationships you must remember the common denominator

----------->YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

~ unknown