Wednesday, April 25, 2007

How Did This Happen?

"A government which robs Peter to pay Paul can always depend on the support of Paul."


todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I have a Higher Power in my life that doesn't appear in liquid form or contain any grain product

that I went to bed sober last night and woke up this morning without a hangover or rum on my breath

that I continue to go through each day without a desire for a beer, a rum/coke or a cigarette

that I have not yelled at a person that I don't know for almost 4 years

that I can drive down any street these days without the fear of a cop stopping me

that I no longer need to make dumb excuses or lie to my friends/family about why I can't attend an important function

that I have the opportunity each day to actually get things accomplished after 9am

that I no longer worry every day about having Parkinson's Disease (which turned out to be Delirium Tremens) nor do I have to consume several alcoholic drinks in order to calm my shakes enough to write on a piece of paper

Sometimes your joy is the source of your smile, but sometimes your smile can be the source of your joy.
-Thich Nhat Hanh

RARE RANT/RAVE: I hope this doesn't offend anyone, but I just feel like it's time to say something.
I don't like being forced to do anything. Duh.
There are some blogs that I read (well, used to read) that have a music video or soundtrack that plays when the blog comes up. I have stopped reading those blogs. I don't want to be forced to listen to your favorite music while I am trying to read. I know that in most cases I can mute the sound, but why bother? There's 100 other blogs that I can give my attention to.
So, if your blog is one that plays a soundtrack, now you know why I probably haven't been making comments on it.



recoveryroad said...

Lmao - I love you, Daveyboy. I really do.

**goes off to install lots of angry fucking music by loud smelly punk bands on blog**

Too right about morning drinking. It's a merciful release not to have to do it anymore. I'm very grateful.

Have a wicked Wednesday!

Pam said...

LOL...Oh darlin' I thought I was the ONLY ONE. It sounds like it's just a distraction for you...but my brain can not read and listen to music at the same time.
I think it would be fun to get a bunch of alcoholics together and write a book of lame excuses...we are the best at that.

Mary Christine said...

Yep. I don't like the musical blogs either.

Did you have a large tax bill last week?

Miss Independent said...

I havent yelled at anyone I dont know it 2.5 years...yay...its the little things my dear :)

Scott W said...

The mute button on my keyboard gets used constantly. I usually have music on from internet radio, I can mute that separately if I watch a video or encounter music elsewhere. I also use the TV remove to mute constantly to avoid all the drivel. Now, where is that damned remote to mute people? I can just see it in an AA meeting, remotes in hand held high.

lushgurl said...

LOL...Funny that I disabled the video on my blog BEFORE I read this!Thank you for not being afraid to say how you really feel! Love ya dAAve! HUGS

Scott said...

well, I am one of those music sharers on my blog from time to time.... lol I am definitely glad you shared how you feel... the links I use now require people to click play in order to hear the tune... I just like to share a little musical inspiration with others... sorry if I drove you away, I know it is distracting to be bombarded by a tune, especially if its the same tune every time... for me though, if there's a good message, a lil click to pause isnt too much energy to expend to get the message in peace lol but hey thats just me :) Thanks for sharing your opinion, my friend!


Syd said...

I'm with you on the music. I don't listen to any while I'm at work because I can't concentrate. Find myself listening to the lyrics instead of what I'm doing. Same as the blog stuff. I can't think about what a person is writing with all the distractions. Just my simple mind...

dbv said...

fine for peter and paul, but what about mary???


I love you.

Meg Moran said...

loved the part about not having to make excuses about social events..gosh I never ever knew what I was gonna be able to do, or even if I would actually show up on time if at all....ugh.

Micky said...

Greetings Dave
I wonder if this might interest you:


Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God [John 3: 3].

About 3 years ago I dropped into a black hole – four months of absolute terror. I wanted to end my life, but somehow [Holy Spirit], I reached out to a friend who took me to hospital. I had three visits [hospital] in four months – I actually thought I was in hell. I imagine I was going through some sort of metamorphosis [mental, physical & spiritual]. I had been seeing a therapist [1994] on a regular basis, up until this point in time. I actually thought I would be locked away – but the hospital staffs were very supportive [I had no control over my process]. I was released from hospital 16th September 1994, but my fear, pain & shame had only subsided a little. I remember this particular morning waking up [home] & my process would start up again [fear, pain, & shame]. No one could help me, not even my therapist [I was terrified]. I asked Jesus Christ to have mercy on me & forgive me my sins. Slowly, all my fear has dissipated & I believe Jesus delivered me from my “psychological prison.” I am a practicing Catholic & the Holy Spirit is my friend & strength; every day since then has been a joy & blessing. I deserve to go to hell for the life I have led, but Jesus through His sacrifice on the cross, delivered me from my inequities. John 3: 8, John 15: 26, are verses I can relate to, organically. He’s a real person who is with me all the time. I have so much joy & peace in my life, today, after a childhood spent in orphanages [England & Australia]. God LOVES me so much. Fear, pain, & shame, are no longer my constant companions. I just wanted to share my experience with you [Luke 8: 16 – 17].

If I give my will to a Higher Power, how can I have the will to continue to control my will? And if I don’t have the will to control my will, and can’t control my will any longer, then how can I continue to place my will in the care of my Higher Power? What’s to stop me from accidentally TAKING MY WILL BACK without meaning to do so?

I imagine, this is how STEPPERS brains are altered – ones Higher Power is in ones head and that is why they [STEPPERS] are the walking dead. Part of the STEPPERS brain, SNAPS, and they end up as Bill Wilson Clones [Zombies] – completely BRAINWASHED with BUCHMANISM. John 3: 16, is the only way out!! I "love" you Davy and I will pray for you!!

Peace Be With You

Piglet said...

ditto on your rant, i recently changed my song on myspace page. now i must go and make sure it isn't on auto-play.

i liked it for about a minute when i first starting reading blogs.