Thursday, March 08, 2012

Apparently, I'm a little different.

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I step to the beat of a different drummer (I don't dance).  I always have and guess I always will.  So many times in AA meetings, I have heard people talk about feeling different when they were young and growing up.  Well, that applies to me too.  I never fit in with most of the kids my age.  I enjoyed being around adults. 
I wanted to be a teacher as far back as I can remember (age 4 or 5).  I pretended to play teacher at home.  I looked up to my teachers throughout elementary school especially.  I had little or no interest in the other kids. 
Then came puberty and adolesence.  I really felt different.  And I was, but I didn't know how different I was .  I didn't know about the gay concept, but I knew I wasn't the same as the other guys.
Then came drinking and drugs.  They made me feel more like I fit in.  And so on and so on .......

I don't know what got me started on this, but here you have it.

Enjoy your day.

Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude.
- William James


Debbi said...

I really love today's picture/quote, and hope I remember it when it's appropriate.

Mary Christine said...

I know I am listening to an alcoholic when they say that one magic sentence "I never felt like I fit in."

Syd said...

I did't feel like I fit in either--and wondered about that until I read that not fitting is happens with those who grow up around alcoholics. So the disease has its tentacles.

I liked this post where you wrote about what you felt.

SoberMomRocks said...

I love the picture and the quote.

Whenever someone says that being gay is a sin or...whatever, I always say that God made everyone - straight or gay...and that my God does not make mistakes. That's a human trait. Therefore, you must be mistaken.

Have a wonderful day. And BTW - I never fit in either.