Thursday, January 07, 2010

a busy day past

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that my yesterday morning did not go as I had it planned; instead, it was better

for Step 3 and the infinite ways it has changed my life

that I got involved in 2 twelfth step calls yesterday (a rather rare thing for me)

for up-close and vivid reminders of the disease of alcoholism and how cunning, baffling and powerful it is. A good friend decided to end his life yesterday. We had talked just a couple of days ago and he seemed ok. Another friend slipped (again) after 4+ years of being clean and sober. I hope she makes it back (again). Those dice can only be rolled so many times for many of us.

Build up your weaknesses until they become your strong points.
- Knute Rockne


Garykfc said...

I'm sorry about your friend. Step 3 is a wonderful remind for me everyday.

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

God be with those surrounding your friends loss today, that they may be directed to greater power through the loss, that the loss not be in vain, but for a greater purpose.

It's so hard to see someone decide to die instead of live. So hard!

I hope your other friend makes it back too!

My prayers are with you today, the third step is a HUGE step showing a God already in motion.

Thank you for sharing this!

Mary Christine said...

Sorry to hear about your friends.

Scott W said...

Makes me all the more grateful to have my sobriety and recovery. Reminds me to be vigilant.

The Second Road said...

Sorry to hear about your friends. I took awhile for me to learn surrender as I watched others step off the path. My emotions ran high and I felt pain--wanting everyone to have what I was beginning to have in sobriety. Now I understand we have to want it.

Syd said...

Dave, I'm really sorry to hear about your friend and the lady who went back out. It is such a sad situation indeed. I wish that people did not see hopelessness when there really is so much to hope for.

mike said...

thanks for the post.
Although the "but for the grace of God.." type moments happen frequently it is so rough when they occur like that. I am sorry for loss.

Carol said...

I'm so sorry that you lost a friend. Someone that I knew at meetings did that and it still bothers me. Maybe because I had so much suicidal ideation myself.

Bill said...

This disease kills people. That's its sole purpose. It wants to make us as miserable as possible before it does that. We can see this everyday. But there is hope & recovery if we want it. You & I want it today, and I am glad for that, because at one point I did not.