back to (part-time) work

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I enjoy being a sober man, especially at my age

that my expectations are generally pretty low.  However, my home life seems to be a different story frequently.  My home life is pretty much the only part of my life where it's difficult to practice spiritual principles.  I'm certainly better than I used to be, but I have a lifetime of progress (hopefully) in front of me.

for step 10 and the inclusion of the word "promptly"

that we got some much needed rain over the weekend

"When I was a boy of fourteen, my father was so ignorant I could hardly stand to have the old man around. But when I got to be twenty-one, I was astonished at how much he had learned in seven years."

~~ Mark Twain

Whey we (alcoholics) drank ........

We drank for happiness and became unhappy.

We drank for joy and became miserable.

We drank for sociability and became argumentative.

We drank for sophistication and became obnoxious.

We drank for friendship and made enemies.

We drank for sleep and awakened without rest.

We drank for strength and felt weak.

We drank “medicinally” and acquired health problems.

We drank for relaxation and got the shakes.

We drank for bravery and became afraid.

We drank for confidence and became doubtful.

We drank to make conversation easier and slurred our speech.

We drank to feel heavenly and ended up feeling like hell.

We drank to forget and were forever haunted.

We drank for freedom and became slaves.

We drank to erase problems and saw them multiply.

We drank to cope with life and invited death.

Bears

A family of bears drunk more than 100 cans of lager after breaking into a holiday cabin in Norway.
Even Borthen Nilsen returned to the cabin with his family to discover dozens of empty beer cans and the place trashed.
"They had a hell of a party in there," he told Finnmarken newspaper. "The entire cabin was destroyed.  The beds and all kitchen appliances, stove, oven and cupboards and shelves were all smashed to pieces.  They have bitten into the cans and drunk the beer. It's almost like taken out of Goldilocks and the three bears."

The bears had got into the cabin through a window, before drinking all the family's beer, eating all the food and smashing up the furniture.


Mr Borthen Nilsen said he was now concerned that the bear family might return to the scene of their party.
"The mother has taken her young there, thus there is no guarantee that it won't happen to other cabins, or to our hut again," he said.

the day ahead

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

I take this thing seriously and do my best to be a good example of recovery instead of a horrible warning

for the opportunities that will undoubtedly present themselves today

that I have multiple choices how I will react to those opportunities

that I'm willing to accept the consequences of my choices

There are a terrible lot of lies going about the world, and the worst of it is that half of them are true.

~ Winston Churchill

The Journey Continues

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that people actually approach me in search of my sponsorship.  Yesterday, a young man asked me to be his temporary sponsor.  I asked him if he will be staying sober just temporarily.  

So, now I'm his sponsor.  LOL

that I have a dentist appointment this morning (just a regular cleaning) and I will be there on time with a smile on my face.

that I have taken a part-time job.  I have not worked since 2002 when I got laid off from the oil business and then declared myself retired.  I will be writing and documenting policies and procedures for a small business owned by a friend in recovery.  We'll see what happens when that is done.  I'll get to work on my schedule, so I shouldn't miss many of my regular meetings.  The journey continues.

Courage is what it takes to stand up and speak; courage is also what it takes to sit down and listen.

~ Winston Churchill

just passing it along to you

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for my commitments in recovery; they not only help me to remain sober,but they pretty much keep me a happy guy

that we read Dr Bob's story yesterday in a meeting; I think he's a more interesting character than Bill W.

He said that the reason he passes on the things he's learned are ........

1) Sense of duty.

2) It is a pleasure.

3) Because in so doing I am paying my debt to the man who took time to pass it on to me.

4) Because every time I do it I take out a little more insurance for myself against a possible slip.

that I have no plans on drinking alcohol today

for doo wop music; I just love it when PBS airs those reunions with the groups of the 50's and 60's

The greatest lesson in life is to know that even fools are right sometimes.

~ Winston Churchill

The way I see it ...

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that most of my life I've been pretty good with sorting out priorities.  I can't imagine what happened concerning my alcoholism.  LOL

that things happen when they happen, usually for a very good reason.  I could draw a rough timeline of my life and see how everything has pretty much fallen into place, just the way it should have.  

that my rate of embellishment has magically been reduced over the past few years (since I got sober).

for self-will.  What a great teacher in recovery.

Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.

~ Dr. Seuss

It's already the middle of August

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I don't need to understand why it works as long as I remember how it works

(If you don't understand what I'm talking about, you're probably not in recovery.  LOL)

that one of the best things I can do as I go into today is to Keep It Simple

that just about everything I heard in the first few months of AA meetings turns out to be true

for the greatest show on Earth, the Olympics.  Congratulations to London for the fine job they did this year.  It's an incredible undertaking, getting more difficult every 4 years.

You are you. Now, isn't that pleasant?

~~ Dr. Seuss

V.I.P.

A very important person is watching your every action, listening to your every word, and knows your every thought. That person is you.
Imagine yourself a year from now, looking back on today. Imagine your future self being exceedingly thankful for the way you lived this day.
Then step forward and live today with that in mind. Think, speak and act in such a way that the person you will become inherits many positive benefits from the person you are right now.
Confidence, integrity, strength and effectiveness do not simply appear out of nowhere. They are built by the way you live your life.
And now is your opportunity to live in a powerful, positive way that will benefit your life for a long time to come. Now is your chance to make your future self thankful for the empowering paths you choose to take.

 -- Ralph Marston

They are all gone now, but boy could they perform!

I don't know how old you have to be to enjoy this, but I sure enjoyed it.

click here

If you have time, click on any of the links at the end of the video.  Some really great stuff.

Damn. I need to remember Rule 62.

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for the roller coaster of sobriety; it's better than the merry-go-round of active addiction

that I'm in a valley of that roller coaster, but it's OK

for the recuperative powers of Step 4.  I have a few unfulfilled expectations to eliminate.

that it's Friday and I will attend 3 AA meetings today @ 6:30am, 10am and 12:15pm.  I have done this every Friday for the past 7+ years.

There is no distance on this earth as far away as yesterday.

~ Robert Nathan

being aware

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I'm a sober person

that I'm an alcoholic in recovery

that I'm aware of many deficiencies in my character

that I'm aware of many positive assets in my character

The best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up.

~ Paul Valery

Right in the middle ........

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that it's hump day.  Right in the middle of the week.

that I heard early in sobriety on that I needed to stay in the middle of the herd so I wouldn't get lost.  Or that I needed to stay in the middle of the roof so I wouldn't fall off.  

You got any other analogies like this?

that I get inspiration from all around me.  Often.

Silence. All human unhappiness comes from not knowing how to stay quietly in a room.

~ Blaise Pascal

reminders

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I'd rather be on the roller coaster of recovery than the merry-go-round of active addiction

as I read Chapter One in the Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions with a sponsee, I was reminded of my bottom.  I know that it was my bottom.  I could not go lower than that without dying.  Hitting that bottom ensures me that I was/am willing to do whatever it takes to stay sober.  I can only wish the same for others.  Only time will tell.

that I'm not comfortable with little white lies.  I know many people who use these often.  When I hear them, I don't like it.  But another program has taught me to let those feelings go.  I don't need to tell other people how to run their lives.  Whew!

Happiness is a choice. Your circumstance can affect it, but you're still the one who decides your happiness.

~ unknown

August 5 + 1

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I thrive on having a sober, social life, but I need time alone every day to recharge

that as I learn more about my friends, I learn more about myself

that I'm happy as can be to just be me

that I've really enjoyed watching most of the Olympics; there have been years that I didn't care to pay attention

Half our life is spent trying to find something to do with the time we have rushed through life trying to save.

~~ unknown

Concentration

dirty floor

progress ........

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I'm not  ..........

such a martyr as I used to be

as defiant as I used to be

as impatient nor as intolerant as I used to be

as stubborn as I used to be

as unteachable as I used to be as pushy as I used to be

Need I go on?

I may no be there yet, but Im closer than yesterday.

~ Will Smith

Some udder stuff

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that some of my addictions are in check.  The others, well ...............

that I have plenty of good examples from which to draw.  That's not an accident.  I choose to pay attention to those people.

to be able to see progress in friends who are new in sobriety.  

My life is a constant battle between my love of food and not wanting to be fat.

~~ unknown

Short & Sweet

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for friends

for a good breakfast

for exercise

for health

for sobriety

for experience

Sometimes, the only reason why you won't let go of what's making you sad is because it was the only thing that made you happy.

~~ unknown