Thursday, October 11, 2007

hAAlf nAAked thursdAAy


I did not get around to creating a picture for today. Sorry.

This is a rerun from last year. It's one of my favorites.

HNT website


todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I will always be accountable - to me!

that I've never had to sleep outside because I had no other place to sleep

that my health allows me to do just about anything I wish

that most situations don't require me to repair them

that I am much more aware today of the ways I try to manipulate people

that (once again) I will be telling a little bit of my experience, strength and hope on Saturday night @ Lambda (they only give me an hour, so I'll have to keep it short)

It is vain to expect our prayers to be heard, if we do not strive as well as pray.
-Aesop

23 comments:

Mary Christine said...

I wanna come to the meeting on Saturday!

Pam said...

ooo good luck on saturday, damn I wish I was going to be in town.

Trudging said...

Let me add my voice to the chorus...I wish I could be there.

Scott W said...

So, you're doing the drag auction?

Gwen said...

I wann come toooooo!

PS ~ I love me a good rerun!

Hugs G~

Syd said...

Hope that you have a grand weekend.

MICKY said...

Greetings David
I wonder if this might interest you:
THE 12 STEPS DOWN TO HELL:
I imagine 12 Step recovery programs are a slow slide into the jaws of Satan. I was involved with this evil “satanic cult” [AA] for over 30 years but was saved through the power of Jesus Christ. He directed me to a therapist who was into “real” recovery, not the mind destroying, soul destroying, cult, which is AA. I have met two Steppers recently & I imagine they are completely devoid of any emotion or insight. I feel pain because both these men are decent human beings but AA has altered their brain structure & they have no idea how to relate apart from expounding AA propaganda. I imagine Hell to be a continuous flow of AA meetings without any light at the end of the tunnel because one never recovers'. I beg you people who are in 12 Step programs, to get out before it is too late.
How does one recover when one is handing one’s power over to AA. The 12 Steps were written out of Wilson’s head, he certainly didn’t get his guidance from the Bible. I imagine he was an agent of Satan & he & Smith’s “cult religion” has filled millions of Steppers with their anti - Christ propaganda.
Step Three of AA is "Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him." While many in the Oxford Group placed their faith in Jesus Christ as Lord and Saviour, there was much leeway given. Shoemaker, a leader of the Oxford Group, says, "The true meaning of faith is self-surrender to God." He further explains:
Surrender to whatever you know about Him, or believe must be the truth about Him. Surrender to Him, if necessary, in total ignorance of Him. Far more important that you touch Him than that you understand Him at first. Put yourself in His hands. Whatever He is, as William James said, He is more ideal than we are. Make the leap. Give yourself to Him. Aside from capitalizing the "H," which Christians do to refer to the God of the Bible, "Him" could refer to any god of one’s own making [bedpan]. Can you see what is happening to you, Davy? Ask Jesus to take control of your life, read the Bible & instead of AA, go to Church. Burn your Big Book or use it as toilet paper. Were you abused as a child, Dave? Can you see the difference: With The 12 Steps, you never recover but with John 3:16 you are guaranteed Eternal Salvation. The “ball is in your court”, David? Do you want to end up as a hissing, emotionally shutdown, cowardly, depressed, demonic, shape - shifting, Bill Wilson zombie, Davy?
Peace Be With You
Micky

MICKY said...

Michellebelle said...
AA and the recovery movement has pretty much destroyed my marriage.I'm biding my time.My husband has never been so selfish and self centered.He wont argue about anything,unless hes sure that hes right.He talks to his sponsor more than me.So what the point in going on.He was a zombie when he got out of rehab,hes sort of normal now,but he still acts like an AA clone.He would sit and stare.Hes still on the rehab schedule,he gets up at a ridiculous hour of the morning and reads the 24 hours a day brainwashing crap and the as Bill sees it garbage.I'm fed up.Hes no fun at all.I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life like this.He told people at our church that I dont agree with AA,so guess what.I no longer have friends there anymore.I want out.

Micky Said:
Greetings Michellebelle
I felt some pain reading your post - re marriage. I imagine your husband is not dealing with his "core issues" - unprocessed STUFF from his history.
His brain will slowly be altered with BUCHMANISM - AA nearly got my soul. Satan is very cunning and can make one feel everything is OK. That is why STEPPERS continue to go to MEETINGS - they need to recharge their batteries [WITH SATANISM]. When one is not at a meeting, ones childhood history starts to surface. One then runs to MUMMY [AA] to hear the DRONING STEPPERS expel meaningless DIATRIBE from their mouths. It’s a KINDA MANTRA…MY name is Bill or Bob or Jack and I’m an ALCOHOLIC…. Slowly the minds’ of the STEPPERS are shutdown [critical thinking section] and they get that ZOMBIE look on their faces - the face of SATAN!!
PEACE BE WITH YOU
MICKY

MICKY said...

Sugah said...
When I evaluate and conclude that I'm doing all the right things and still feel that something is not right, it's nearly always a result of neglect in practicing the eleventh step.

Micky Said
Dear Sugah
I attended ROSARY today. We prayed that you would be delivered from the "satanic cult (AA) that is destroying your soul. Please ask Jesus to deliver you from your "psychological prison"? I love you, Sugah, and I will continue to pray for you. At the end of the day, your process is not up to me - but the saving Grace of our Lord Jesus Christ. I AM JUST AN INSTRUMENT GOD USES TO TELL OTHERS ABOUT HIS SON, JESUS CHRIST, WHO DIED ON A CROSS FOR MANKIND'S SIN.
PEACE BE WITH YOU
MICKY

MICKY said...

Jody K Shares
Commonly known out here in cyberspace as "Sugah," origins mostly by now forgotten, my name is Jody K. I have been on this journey for a modest stack of 1,725 twenty-four hour days, impressive when I look at it until I remember what a small number that is compared to the ones spent under the thumb of King Alcohol (and the various members of his loyal court). So, that being said, I am still very new at all this, still discovering things, small truths and doing my best to apply them to my life.

Dear Sugah
I beg you, to get out of AA, before it destroys you. The only way to SALVATION, is through the saving Grace of our Lord Jesus Christ. These other 12 Step BLOGGERS (DEMONS) - soberchick, shadow, pam shadow and higher powered, are emotionally shutdown, terrified little children, who don't want to face the truth about themselves. You have the courage - through the power of the HOLY SPIRIT, to TRANSFORRM yourself and become a witness for Christ, not SATAN (AA).
I will be praying for you Jody!
PEACE BE WITH YOU
MICKY

MICKY said...

Fireman John said...
micky; hope you read my response to your long winded bullshit comments.
Until YOU, I had no reason to moderate comments; thanks for fucking up the process!
I didn't even mind the anti-AA crap but the personal attacks were unwarranted.

Micky Said:
Dear John
I felt some pain when I read your comments. Your process is not about me, Johnny, but unprocessed "stuff" from your childhood. You are not an alcoholic, but a sinner, like me. What I would like you to do is to get down on your knees and ask Jesus Christ to forgive you for the above DIATRIBE (sin) and ask Him to have mercy on your soul. After you have done that, John The Fireman, I suggest you see a therapist (inner child), who can help you process your TERROR. You are a frightened "Little Boy", who has a conscious fear of intimacy and an unconscious fear of abandonment. You RAGE over your fear, pain, shame and grief. Most STEPPERS are RAGEAHOLICS, Jack, and you are a CLASSIC. I wondered if an anger workshop might help you dispel some of your RAGE, John? I attended an anger workshop for 4 years, Johnny, and my process was greatly improved. Were you abused as a child, Johnny? You can say what you like, when you respond to my comments, unlike you, who felt he had to moderate his (comments). You don't like to be challenged, do you, John? I will help you to become the person you were meant to be - a child of God. The choice is yours, John? You can stay in your "psychological prison", or you can join the land of the living. Don't abandon yourself to Satan (AA) or you will end up a creeping, listless, depressed, emotionally shutdown, cowardly, shape - shifting, Bill Wilson zombie. I love you, Johnny, and you will be in my prayers. Do you love me, Jack? How do you FEEL, Johnny? Have you be putting out any fires, lately, John? Are you a RAGING FIRE, Jack?
PEACE BE WITH YOU
MICKY

MICKY said...

Shadow said...
a round of applause to you for your comments to micky. but i don't think he gets it.... he's been around everywhere and is like an annoying child who just won't go away. hasn't he heard of live and let live????? thanks for speaking up in your post too.

Micky Said:
Greetings Shadow
I still don’t know what your feeling, “young lady!” I imagine you are completely insane, can you see what the “cult” has done to your brain - completely altered it. You obviously don’t know how to be intimate. I feel some sadness; it probably isn’t your fault.
8Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. [1 Peter 5: 8]
I imagine Satan is starting to devour you, SHADOW? John 3: 16 will save you You will then be just a "Shadow" of your old self?
Peace Be With You
Micky

MICKY said...

Fireman John Said;
I look at recovery as a structure, built on a foundation; the strength of the foundation is reinforced through meetings, asking for help and admitting that no matter the challenge, there is nothing that a drink will solve or change.
Anxiety does occur as a result of fear and uncertainty, but it can be managed by a positive and grateful attitude. As long as we remember to stay vigilant and moving forward, there isn't anything we can't cope with.

Micky Said:
Greetings John
Your comments don't make any sense, Jack!! (Anxiety does occur as a result of fear and uncertainty, but it can be managed by a positive and grateful attitude.). Anxiety is fear, Johnny. Are you suffering from smoke inhalation, Johnny? The only way you will be SAVED, is John 3:16? I suggest you burn your BIG BOOK or keep it in your toilet - just in case you run out of TOILET PAPER. Buy yourself a BIBLE and start reading God's word, not Wilson's satanic verses (BIG BOOK). I love you, Johnny! Do you love me, Jack? Are you FROTHING at the mouth, reading my comments, Jack? Are you on FIRE, Johnny? Give yourself a good HOSING down. HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA!
PEACE BE WITH YOU
MICKY

MICKY said...

Inmatez Wife Said:
I THINK YOU ARE POSSESED BY THE DEVIL
YOU ARE EVIL
STOP HATING THOSE OF US WHO ARE CLEAN AND SOBER
GO TAKE ANOTHER DRINK YOU SICK FUCK

Micky Said:
Dear Inmatez Wife
I felt some pain when I read your comments. I imagine you were RAGING over your fear, pain and shame.You have a conscious fear of intimacy and an unconscious fear of abandonment. The only way you will be SAVED is for you to go back to the CHAMBER OF HORRORS (your childhood) and recover your INNER CHILD, who you abandoned quite a while ago. You are a TERRIFIED "Little Child", who wants her MOMMY (AA). I suggest you get down on your knees and ask Jesus Christ to forgive you for the above DIATRIBE (sin). I love you! Do you love me? Are you a PSYCHOPATH? Are you in HELL?
PEACE BE WITH YOU
MICKY

MICKY said...

Sugah Said:
I, too, will pray for you, that you may be relieved of your compulsion to impose your will on other people. I believe you are the one in need of peace, my friend.

Micky Said:
Dear Sugah
I felt some pain reading your comments. I imagine you were RAGING over your fear, pain and shame. I imagine you are a RAGEAHOLIC, CONTROL FREAK and AVOIDER. You have a conscious fear of intimacy and an unconscious fear of abandonment. Were you ABUSED as a child, Jody? I suggest you get down on your knees and ask Jesus Christ to forgive you for the above DIATRIBE (sin). And ask Him (Jesus) to have mercy on your soul. Do you believe that Jesus Christ died on a cross for your sins, Sugah? The only way to SALVATION is through the saving Grace of our Lord Jesus Christ [John 3: 16]. I love you, Sugah! Do you love me? I hope you haven't handed your will over to Satan (AA), Sugah? Because if you have, you will end up as just another emotionally shutdown, cowardly, raging, shape - shifting, BILL WILSON ZOMBIE? I suggest you see a therapist who can help you process your TERROR? You are a frightened "Little Girl", who wants her DADDY (AA). The next time I attend ROSARY, I will pray for your soul. How do you FEEL, “Young Lady”?
PEACE BE WITH YOU
MICKY

MICKY said...

Danny S Said:
Just attending AA meetings and making observations about a Twelve Step fellowship doesn’t give you any credibility - certainly not enough to comment on the Twelve Steps.

Micky Said;
Greetings Danny
In addition, these twelve steps are a deceitful attack against the saving work of the Lord Jesus Christ (i.e. they are against Christ, antichrist, 2 John 7; Colossians 2:8-10). Has your brain been completely altered with BUCHMANISM (Satanism), Daniel? Were you ABUSED as a child, LITTLE TERRIFIED DANNY? The only hope for you is, John 3:16? Are you in HELL (AA), Dan?
PEACE BE WITH YOU
MICKY

MICKY said...

Christine Said:
I believe I am. Self absorbed. Its all about me me me. I'm ready for happy joyous and free. When's the fun in this recovery? Its so much work so much of the time. Its time to be able to read a book for fun not just to learn something. Take a walk for fun not exercise. What's life for if not for living? I'm weary of self analyzing and not having some fun.

Micky's Comments
Dearest Christine
The only way you will be redeemed is for you to get down on your knees and ask Jesus Christ to have mercy on you, and forgive you for your sins. These other demons, Shadow, Kathy Lynne & higher powered, will pull you down to their level, until you become a RAGING sshape - shifting reptile, like them. I love you, Christine - they don't - and I care about your eternal soul. Trust Jesus (I did) and he will deliver you. I will be praying for you Christine!!
PEACE BE WITH YOU
MICKY

MICKY said...

Noah Said:
I have obsessions which are based on fear. These obsessions come from every part of my life from the personal to the interpersonal to the professional. These fears are usually over-exagerrated and irrational expressions. My fears feed my compulsion, an unfulfilled compulsion to get high, that being the only way I know of to solve my fear, anxiety, depression, boredom, anger, etc.

Micky Said:
FEAR from your childhood, is what you need to process, Noah! You will get a temporary reprieve [AA] from your TERROR, but SATAN is very patient and if you don’t deal with it [FEAR], Satan will devour you. I suggest that you get down on your knees and ask Jesus Christ to have mercy on you and forgive you your sins. You are not an ADDICT but a SINNER, just like me.
PEACE BE WITH YOU
MICKY

MICKY said...

ordic says…
I happen to be jewish and not one person in any meetings I goto have ever tried to convert me to anything else.

Micky's Comments
Gretings Kordic
Your AA BRAINWASHING is happening unconsciously. As you listen to the DRONING STEPPERS, your brain is slowly being altered. The critical thinking section of your brain, shuts down, and your facial features start to change. You will eventually get that 12 Step LOOK – “shape - shifting reptilian look". When you walk into a 12 Step meeting you are inviting SATAN into your life, not JESUS CHRIST.
Peace Be With You
Micky

MICKY said...

Namenlosen Trinker said...
Please stop commenting on my blog unless and until I give you permission.

Dear Trinker
Are you a Psychopath? You have the eyes of a shape - shifting reptile. I imagine you are a TERRIFIED "Little Boy", who wants his MUMMY. Were you FROTHING at the mouth whenyou left you DIATRIBE on my BLOG.Get down on your knees and ask JESUS CHRIST to have mercy on your soul. Are you in Hell, Trinker?
You are of your father the devil, and your will is to do your father's desires. He was a murderer from the beginning, and has nothing to do with the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks out of his own character, for he is a liar and the father of lies (John 8:44).
BEGONE SATAN!!

MICKY said...

HOW IT SUCKS:
Rarely have we seen a person fail who thoroughly followed us home. Those who are not BRAINWASHED are people who cannot or will not completely give themselves to this garbage, usually men and women who are constitutionally capable of thinking for themselves. There are such fortunates. They are not at fault; they seem to have been born premature. They are naturally capable of building and developing muscles, which demands rigorous training. Their chances are 6/4 on. There are those, too, who are gravediggers and undertakers, but many of them do become ZOMBIES if they have the capacity to be dishonest. Our stories disclose in a twisted way, who we like, what happened, and who we hate now. If you have decided you want a cup of tea and are willing to go to any lengths to become emotionally shutdown, SHAPE SHIFTING REPTILES - then you are ready to take certain steps. At some of these we balked, we thought we could find someone to 13th Step. And we realised, we could. With all the madness at our command, we beg of you to become Bill Wilson Clones - from the very start. Some of us have tried to hold on to our BIG BOOKS and the result was nil until we let go of our SPONSORS.
Remember that we deal with alcohol, frothy, bubbly, and powerful! Without help it is too much for us. But there is one who has all power that one is the BARMAN. May you find Him now!
Half measures availed us nothing. We stood at the bar. We asked the BARMAN for a couple of stiff whiskies. Here are the steps we took, which are suggested as a program to INSANITY:
1.We admitted we were powerless over Coca - Cola, and decided to drink Pepsi, instead.
2.Came to believe that Cold Power was a detergent.
3.Made a decision to turn our heads when we saw an attractive blond.
4.Did a body search of the new members.
5.Admitted to our DOG, to elves, and to another super being the exact nature of our songs.
6.Were entirely ready to have SUPERMAN remove the effects of kryptonite.
7.Humbly asked CLARK KENT to remove our brains.
8.Made a list of all persons who owed us money, and became willing to charge them interest.
9.Made direct hits wherever possible, except when someone moved the target.
10.Continued to talk crap and when we were wrong, promptly talked more crap.
11.Sought through our mail and computer to improve our conscious contact with BATMAN, as we understood him, praying only for knowledge of ROBIN and the return of SPIDERMAN.
12.Having had a stroke as the result of these steps, we tried to carry out the garbage, and fell flat on our backs. Many of us exclaimed, "What an order! I can't go through with it." Do not be discouraged. No one among us has been able to maintain their homes and 13th Step the newcomers, at the same time. We are not psychopaths. The point is, that we are willing to become psychotic. The principles we have set down are guides to psychosis. We claim that Bill Wilson was a psychopath.
Our description of the landscape, the chapter to the Gnostic, and our family photos before and after make clear three pertinent ideas:
(a) That we were ugly and could not manage our own appearance.
(b) That probably no photographer could have improved our looks.
(c) That a PLASTIC SURGEON could and would if he were sought.
Peace Be With You
Micky

MICKY said...

THE SACRED BULL
I imagine 12 STEPPERS have sold their souls to the devil. Fortunately, I was saved through the power of Jesus Christ, but for many years had been exposed to the evil “satanic cult” (Alcoholics Anonymous) Wilson (AA) has prostituted himself & deluded many thousands (12 Step Groups) by worshipping the god Moloch (Ba’al the Sacred Bull). It all started with his (Wilson) “drug induced hallucination”….
Here are references to seances and other psychic events….
Bill would…”get” these things …long sentences, word by word would come through….” (22)
, he asked for guidance….The words began tumbling out with astonishing speed….(23)
So A.A.’s 12 Steps were actually received verbatim from the demonic world. It is not surprising, then, that the effect of A.A. upon many of its members is to lead them into occult involvement. In 1958, Wilson wrote to Sam Shoemaker,
Throughout A.A., we find a large amount of psychic phenomena, nearly all of it spontaneous. Alcoholic after alcoholic tells me of such experiences… run nearly the full gamut of everything we see in the books. In addition to my original mystical experience, I’ve had a lot of such phenomenalism myself.(24)
Wilson’s “original mystical experience” was his alleged “conversion” –a classic occult encounter: “Suddenly the room lit up with a great white light. I was caught up into an ecstasy…it burst upon me that I was a free man…a wonderful feeling of Presence, and I thought to myself, ‘So this is the God of the preachers! ‘ A great peace stole over me….”(25)
This was not the “God of the preachers” but the one who transforms himself “into an angel of light” (2 Cor 1l:l4)-a light that often transforms those involved in the occult. The experience was so profound that Wilson never touched alcohol again. Satan would he more than willing to deliver a man from alcoholism in this life if thereby he could ensnare him for eternity and inspire him to lead millions to the same destruction!
Wilson joined the Oxford Group and regularly attended its meetings at Calvary Church (NY), pastored by Episcopalian Sam Shoemaker. Shoemaker urged his hearers to “accept God however they might conceive of him….”(26) Here was the origin of Step 3’s “God as we understood him.” God does not respond to those who call upon false gods. Jesus said, “And this is life eternal, that they might know thee, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent” (Jn 17:3). God’s judgment comes upon them “that know not God, and that obey not the gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ (2 Thes 1:8).
I will set my face against that man & his family & will cut off from their people both him & all who follow him in prostituting themselves to MolechI will set my face against the person who turns to mediums & spiritists to prostitute himself by following them, & I will cut him off from his people. (Leviticus 20: 5, 6)
Moloch the God Ba’al, the Sacred Bull, was widely worshipped in the ancient Near East and wherever Carthaginian culture extended. Baal Moloch was conceived under the form of a calf or an ox or depicted as a man with the head of a bull.
Hadad, Baal or simply the King identified the god within his cult. The name Moloch is not the name he was known by among his worshippers, but a HebrewMoloch (in the Septuagint Greek translation of the Old Testament), or Molech (Hebrew), is no different than the word Melech or king, transformed by interposing the vowels of bosheth or ’shameful thing’. translation. The written form.
He is sometimes also called Milcom in the Old Testament.
I beg you Steppers to to get out while you can (12 Step) or end up as emotionally shutdown, creepy, depressed, raging, shape - shifting, “bull headed”, Bill Wilson zombies?
PEACE BE WITH YOU
MICKY

MICKY said...

INDIFFERENCE:
I have protracted my work till most of those whom I wished to please have sunk into the grave, and success and miscarriage are empty sounds: I therefore dismiss it with frigid tranquility, having little to fear or hope from censure or from praise.
Samuel Johnson (1709-1784) British author.

Nothing can contribute more to peace of soul than the lack of any opinion whatever.
Georg C. Lichtenberg (1742-1799) German scientist, satirist and anglophile.

It means nothing to me. I have no opinion about it, and I don't care.
Pablo Picasso (1881-1973) Spanish painter.

The worst sin towards our fellow creatures is not to hate them, but to be indifferent to them; that's the essence of inhumanity.
George Bernard Shaw (1856-1950) Irish writer.
PEACE BE WITH YOU
MICKY