Wednesday, February 15, 2012
todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful
for constant reminders of what it was like. If you're not in recovery, you probably don't understand what this means. If you are an alcoholic-in-recovery, you most certainly know what I'm referring to.
I drank for 33 years; the first 32 were pretty darn good times. Very few negative consequences (that I knew about). But my last year of drinking were the worst days of my life. And they just kept getting worse until I was able to find a Higher Power that took away my obsession to stay drunk.
These constant reminders are given to me mostly in the AA meetings I attend. Whether it's someone struggling to get sober or stay sober or maybe the topic of a meeting, I get these reminders.
I do know this -- I do not regret the past nor do I wish to shut the door on it. It all stays in my memory for a reason.
Most men pursue pleasure with such breathless haste that they hurry past it.
- Soren Kierkegaard