reminders

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for constant reminders of what it was like.  If you're not in recovery, you probably don't understand what this means.  If you are an alcoholic-in-recovery, you most certainly know what I'm referring to. 
I drank for 33 years; the first 32 were pretty darn good times.  Very few negative consequences (that I knew about).  But my last year of drinking were the worst days of my life.  And they just kept getting worse until I was able to find a Higher Power that took away my obsession to stay drunk.

These constant reminders are given to me mostly in the AA meetings I attend.  Whether it's someone struggling to get sober or stay sober or maybe the topic of a meeting, I get these reminders. 

I do know this -- I do not regret the past nor do I wish to shut the door on it.  It all stays in my memory for a reason.


Most men pursue pleasure with such breathless haste that they hurry past it.
- Soren Kierkegaard