Whelmed

I gotta be honest with you guys.

There are days when I sit down to write my Gratitude list and I can't think of a damn thing to write. I try to list things I have not listed previously. You know, something new. Sometimes, I'll just say fuck it leave it and come back later to try again. Other times, I force myself to come up with stuff. Things that are not in the front of my mind. At those times, it feels almost overwhelming. Today, I'm neither overwhelmed nor underwhelmed. I'm just whelmed.

But maybe that's why I do these lists. Because they make me think, sometimes, very, very hard. Hey, that's a lot of progress!

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for the keyboard which is attached to my CPU and magically transmits these words to people around the world in a matter of seconds

that, on second thought, there's nothing wrong with being grateful for the same thing many times

that my recovery is a result of surrender and not a cease-fire

for some gut-wrenching honesty at the noon meeting yesterday

that I get so much back from the AA program; so much more than I put into it

that we began our third reading of The Big Book at the 6:30am Eyes Wide Shut meeting; the first 2 readings took 16 months and 15 months, respectively (we read for about 30 minutes every Tuesday, then discuss)

to witness growth and maturing in someone who had a rough start in recovery

for our newest recovery blogger, T. Drop by and say hello to her down under.

that tomorrow is HNT and I'm sure all of you will be participating
(hint, hint)

for a relatively mild and wet summer here in Houston -- so far

YOUR HIGHER POWER MAKES YOUR LIFE UNCOMFORTABLE WHEN IT'S TIME FOR YOU TO CHANGE.
Denial Is Not a River in Egypt