Friday, July 15, 2011

I'm just a grateful old ....

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I attended 2 meetings yesterday that centered on Step 1. "We were powerless over alcohol and our lives had become unmanageable." It took a few months of a clearing detoxing brain before I realized that alcohol had been my master, had managed my life for many years. I had conveniently overlooked that part of my drinking life. I thought I had been a functional alcoholic since I held a good job and was financially responsible.

that today, as I type this, I AM a functional alcoholic.

that a few friends of mine offer such hope and inspiration to so many of us. I have 2 friends who are both 33 years old, one with terminal colon cancer (he will die any day) and another who was just diagnosed with lymphoma and began chemotherapy this week. Another friend who's about 50 is going through a second round of colo-rectal cancer and just came out of major surgery. All these people are sober and recovering alcoholics and show me how to act when the times get really tough. Whew!

that my problems ain't shit!

The tragedy of life doesn't lie in not reaching your goal.
The tragedy lies in having no goal to reach.

- Benjamin Mays


Steve E said...

Nothing but admiration, gratitude, humility and prayer, do I have in my heart for these courageous, suffering friends of yours. AMEN.

You are not old....yet!

Mary Christine said...

I have seen sober people do the most grueling things with grace, dignity, and gratitude. I always marvel.

Syd said...

I am sorry about your friends. I am reminded that I have much to be grateful for.