Monday, May 31, 2010
Step One "We admitted we were powerless over alcohol -
that our lives had become unmanageable.
I really never had a problem admitting that I'm an alcoholic. From my late 20's, that was rather clear. I drank more than anyone else I knew. I drank every night. I drank during the day when I could get away with it. This went on for more than 30 years. And by the time my drinking was finished, I was drinking when I didn't want to. But I had to drink. I didn't know how NOT to drink.
However, I have had a more difficult time realizing the unmanageability of my life. Now, I see it better than ever. But until I had been sober for a couple of years, this was hard to grasp. To put it simply, now I know how alcohol managed my life. All my thoughts and most of my behavior.
todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful
that I'm sober today and for the last 2460 days.
that I attended our May birthday night at Lambda on Saturday. We had 24 people celebrating a total of 399 years of sobriety.
for the things that this holiday stands for. All service men in defense of their country are special people. I have the ultimate respect for the work they do.
If I had my life to live over...I'd dare to make more mistakes next time.
- Nadine Stair