Thursday, July 07, 2011

leading a colorful life











todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that we all have different personalities; otherwise, life would be so dull and boring!

that good things just keep happening in my life especially when I don't expect it

that so many of my life experiences can help me today, if I only keep it all in perspective

for honesty and integrity in myself and others


A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity;
an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty.
- Winston Churchill



Wednesday, July 06, 2011

2 blogging buddies













todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

to have my 2 of my favorite girls blogging every day -- Mary Christine a.k.a. Being Sober and Pammie a.k.a. Sobriety is Exhausting

Through the commonality of our blogs, we have all met each other. I have stayed at Mary's home in another state and she has stayed at my home here in Texas. We've done things together and I even know her daughter. I know Pammie (she lives here in Houston) and her daughter also. We've gone to meetings together and eaten together. I really missed them while they were not blogging. But now they're back and the world is a better place for it.

to be able to see friends whose recovery is progressing nicely


The difference between school and life?
In school, you're taught a lesson and then given a test. In life, you're given a test that teaches you a lesson.
- Tom Bodett


Tuesday, July 05, 2011

Anger














todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I've learned, and sometimes remember, how to process anger -- in recovery.

Anger is a form of FEAR. Either I feel threatened about something or I'm afraid I'm going to lose something I already ahve or I'm not going to get something I want.


Once I recognize which direction my fear is coming from, I can begin to let it go.


Anger is like a thorn in the heart.
- Yiddish Proverb

For every minute you remain angry,
you give up sixty seconds of peace of mind.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Anger is often more hurtful than the injury that caused it.
- English Proverb

He who angers you conquers you.
- Elizabeth Kenny


Monday, July 04, 2011

Have a happy 4th !






This week, I will post some pictures of aircraft paint jobs. There seem to be a few creative painters out there.








todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for this little tidbit that I heard in a meeting over the weekend .......


God is a verb.

In the comment section, explain what this means to you. I'll be interested to read some of your answers.

Happiness is the absence of the striving for happiness.
- Zhuangzi



Sunday, July 03, 2011

Maya

These are attributed to Maya Angelou .........


'I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.'

'I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights.'

'I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life.'

'I've learned that making a 'living' is not the same thing as making a life.'

'I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.'

'I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back...'

'I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.'

'I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.'

'I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back....'

'I've learned that I still have a lot to learn..'

'I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.'

Saturday, July 02, 2011

Insanity etc...

To Maintain A Healthy Level Of Insanity

1.. In the Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write 'For Marijuana'.
2. Order a Diet Water whenever you go out to eat, with a serious face.
3. Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is 'To Go'.
4. Sing Along At The Opera.
5. Five Days In Advance, Tell Your Friends You Can't Attend Their Party Because You have a headache.
6. When Leaving the Zoo, Start Running towards the Parking lot, Yelling 'Run For Your Lives! They're Loose!'
7. Tell Your Children Over Dinner, 'Due To The Economy, We Are Going To Have To Let One Of You Go.'

And The Final Way To Keep A Healthy Level Of Insanity...

8. PICK UP A BOX OF CONDOMS AT THE PHARMACY, GO TO THE COUNTER AND ASK WHERE THE FITTING ROOM IS.

Friday, July 01, 2011

Going into the weekend .......




todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that some of the things that seemed so important just a few years ago (before I stopped drinking) rarely even cross my mind these days

that my life is no longer about drinking OR not drinking; it's about living sober

for the new challenges that pop up, often without my asking

for The Promises on pages 83 and 84 of The Big Book (Alcoholics Anonymous)


The greatest discovery of any generation
is that a human being can alter his life by
altering his attitude.
- William James


Thursday, June 30, 2011

Isn't it obvious?





todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for slogans ...

Live and Let Live
Easy Does It
But for the Grace of God
Think, Think, Think
First Things First


(look at those again, and read the first word of each)



"Never look back unless you are planning to go that way."
- Henry David Thoreau

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

thoughts






todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I really, really try to keep it simple (everything)

to see progress in others; especially friends who have less than a year in the program

for second chances

for outside help; those in recovery who say it should not happen should keep their damn mouths shut. Actually, they are probably the ones who need it most.


Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.
- Lao Tzu

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Dancing Queens




todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I'm old enough to have experienced a lot, but young enough to try it again anyway

for A.A.'s first step and its importance -- "We were powerless over alcohol and our lives had become unmanageable."

for those who've tried to get sober outside/without AA and come to share their experiences

that I feel much better than yesterday, thank you


Courage doesn't always roar.
Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying,
"I will try again tomorrow.”
- Mary Anne Radmacher


Monday, June 27, 2011

Not feelin' well

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I got to celebrate and participate in another Pride weekend here in Houston

that I stayed sober and content throughout the weekend

that I wrote this much this morning; I'm sorta sick


Achievement seems to be connected with action.
Successful men and women keep moving.
They make mistakes, but they don't quit.
- Conrad Hilton

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Saturday, June 25, 2011

You can retire ...

You can retire to Phoenix, Arizona where
1. You are willing to park 3 blocks away because you found shade.
2. You've experienced condensation on your butt from the hot water in the toilet bowl.
3. You can drive for 4 hours in one direction and never leave town.
4. You have over 100 recipes for Mexican food.
5. You know that "dry heat" is comparable to what hits you in the face when you open your oven door.
6. The 4 seasons are: tolerable, hot, really hot, and are you KIDDING ME ?!



You can retire to California where
1. You make over $250,000 and you still can't afford to buy a house.
2. The fastest part of your commute is going down your driveway.
3. You know how to eat an artichoke.
4. You drive your rented Mercedes to your neighborhood block party.
5. When someone asks you how far something is, you tell them how long it will take to get there rather than how many miles away it is.
6. The 4 seasons are: Fire, Flood, Mud, and Drought..

You can retire to New York City where
1. You say "the city" and expect everyone to know you mean Manhattan.
2. You can get into a four-hour argument about how to get from Columbus Circle to Battery Park, but can't find Wisconsin on a map.
3. You think Central Park is "nature."
4. You believe that being able to swear at people in their own language makes you multi-lingual.
5. You've worn out a car horn. (ed note: if you have a car)
6. You think eye contact is an act of aggression.

You can retire to Maine where
1. You only have four spices: salt, pepper, ketchup, and Tabasco .
2. Halloween costumes fit over parkas.
3. You have more than one recipe for moose.
4. Sexy lingerie is anything flannel with less than eight buttons.
5. The four seasons are: winter, still winter, almost winter, and construction.



You can retire to the Deep South where
1. You can rent a movie and buy bait in the same store.
2. "Y'all" is singular and "all y'all" is plural.
3. "He needed killin'" is a valid defense.
4. Everyone has 2 first names: Billy Bob, Jimmy Bob, Mary Sue, Betty Jean, Mary Beth, etc.
5. Everything is either "in yonder," "over yonder" or "out yonder." It's important to know the difference, too.



You can retire to Colorado where
1. You carry your $3,000 mountain bike atop your $500 car
2. You tell your husband to pick up Granola on his way home and so he stops at the day care center.
3. A pass does not involve a football or dating.
4. The top of your head is bald, but you still have a pony tail.



You can retire to the Midwest where
1. You've never meet any celebrities, but the mayor knows your name.
2. Your idea of a traffic jam is ten cars waiting to pass a tractor.
3. You have had to switch from "heat" to "A/C" on the same day.
4. You end sentences with a preposition: "Where's my coat at?"
5. When asked how your trip was to any exotic place, you say, "It was different!"


OR


You can retire to Florida where
1. You eat dinner at 3:15 in the afternoon.
2. All purchases include a coupon of some kind -- even houses and cars.
3. Everyone can recommend an excellent dermatologist.
4. Road construction never ends anywhere in the state.
5. Cars in front of you often appear to be driven by headless people

Friday, June 24, 2011

Just trying to stay warm





todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that the consequences of sobriety seem to be much better than the consequences of continuing to drink

that today, I plan to stay sober to oblivion

for an easier, softer way

for my particular committments to service work, without which I'd either be sitting at home doing very little or sitting in a bar doing way too much


There is no passion to be found playing small -
in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living.
- Nelson Mandela

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Life as I understand it






todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for the cool and unexpected experiences that I've had while praying and as a result of praying

for my AA home group and its spiritual health

that I feel very comfortable sharing many of my more embarrassing experiences with sponsees

that the Houston area finally got some significant rain yesterday. The best rainfall since January. But we're still in a record-setting drought.


Courage is what it takes to stand up and speak;
courage is also what it takes to sit down and listen.
- Winston Churchill


Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Don't be a doormat.



todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for my step work with another alcoholic. Yesterday, we read more about Step 8 -- "Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all."


"The moment we ponder a twisted or broken relationship with another person, our emotions go on the defensive. To escape looking at the wrongs we have done another, we resentfully focus on the wrong he has done us. Triumphantly we seize upon his misbehavior as the perfect excuse for minimizing or forgetting our own."

"Since defective relations with other human beings have nearly always been the immediate cause of our woes, including our alcoholism, no field of investigation could yield more satisfying and valuable rewards than this one."



I'm really grateful that I'm not nearly as affected by denial as I might have been. I've met many people who live in denial. It can be really tough getting through to them. Another good reason to keep coming back. LOL




Life is a succession of lessons which must be lived to be understood.
- Helen Keller


Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I woke up sober today (again).



todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I don't wake up in the morning feeling a need to re-invent the wheel

to be able to see/recognize progress in others

that I have integrity - something crucial for my self-esteem

for this -- (overheard at my AA club) -- "A friend was given an award for his humility. When he accepted it, they took it away from him."


Everyone believes that their beliefs are the right ones - that is why they are called beliefs.

Monday, June 20, 2011

I try to NOT repeat myself, but ...




todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

some things are worth repeating

for my sobriety AND my slow recovery from alcoholism

for the many, many things about life that I haven't learned yet

that most things in my life aren't nearly as important as my mind thinks they are

for the people I know who give and give with no seeming expectation for something in return

that this is gay pride week; I will drive a convertible in Houston's parade this Saturday


The invariable mark of wisdom is to see the miraculous in the common.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson


Sunday, June 19, 2011

Desiderata

In case you have not read this lately, here it is.


Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interest in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let not this blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have the right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams;it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

- Max Ehrmann, 1927

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Rodney





I have always loved the humor of Rodney Dangerfield. If you do too, read on ...



My wife only has sex with me for a purpose. Last night she used me to time an egg.

It's tough to stay married. My wife kisses the dog on the lips, yet she won't drink from my glass!


Last night my wife met me at the front door. She was wearing a sexy negligee. The only trouble was, she was coming home.

A girl phoned me and said, 'Come on over. There's nobody home.' I went over. Nobody was home!

A hooker once told me she had a headache.

I went to a massage parlor. It was self-service.

If it weren't for pickpockets, I'd have no sex life at all.

I was making love to this girl and she started crying. I said, 'Are you going to hate yourself in the morning?'
She said, 'No, I hate myself now.'

I knew a girl so ugly that she was known as a two-bagger. That's when you put a bag over your head in case the bag over her head comes off.

I knew a girl so ugly... they use her in prisons to cure sex offenders.

My wife is such a bad cook, if we leave dental floss in the kitchen the roaches hang themselves.

I'm so ugly I stuck my head out the window and got arrested for mooning.

The other day I came home and a guy was jogging, naked. I asked him, 'Why?' He said, 'Because you came home early.'

My wife's such a bad cook, the dog begs for Alka-Seltzer.

I know I'm not sexy. When I put my underwear on I can hear the Fruit-of-the-Loom guys giggling.

My wife is such a bad cook, in my house we pray after the meal.

My wife likes to talk on the phone during sex. She called me from Chicago last night.

My family was so poor that if I hadn't been born a boy, I wouldn't have had anything to play with.

Friday, June 17, 2011

side by side





todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for freedom and choices

that I'm still willing to do whatever it takes to continue my recovery

as a real minority (a gay, recovering alcoholic) I can be an example to others like me

that I feel no pressure to do the next right thing



The jump is so frightening between where I am and where I want to be.
Because of all I may become, I will close my eyes and leap.
- Mary Anne Radmacher




Thursday, June 16, 2011

I already knew this








No judgement. I just like the picture and think it's funny.





todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful


that I hear a lot just by listening

that I see a lot just by watching

that I learn a lot just by doing

for the fellow bloggers I've gotten to meet over the years I've been writing this little ditty. People from Massachusetts, Ohio, Colorado, California, Michigan, New York, Florida and England. That's cool.


Laugh at yourself and at life. Not in the spirit of derision or whining self-pity, but as a remedy, a miracle drug, that will ease your pain, cure your depression, and help you to put in perspective that seemingly terrible defeat and worry with laughter at your predicaments, thus freeing your mind to think clearly toward the solution that is certain to come. Never take yourself too seriously.
- Og Mandino

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

No worries ...





todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful


that I don't worry about relapsing or going out to bars

that I don't worry about getting old (it's happening as I type)

that I don't worry about having to please those who know me

that I don't worry about where my next meal is coming from or where I'll sleep tonight



If only the people who worry about their liabilities
would think about the riches they do possess,
they would stop worrying.
- Dale Carnegie


Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Short, and to the point.





















todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that even though I am at a loss for wordage this morning, I am

sober
serene
present
trudging

If the only prayer you said in your whole life was, Thank you, that would suffice.
- Meister Eckhart

Monday, June 13, 2011

Monday the 13th







todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I no longer live on the edge

for a highly successful fundraiser over the weekend where we raised twice our goal

for all of the people who give, then give some more; they are both an inspiration and motivation

that I got to participate in a Cadillac event yesterday that allowed me to drive on an obstacle course and racetrack at some very high speeds. Another first for me.

Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm.
- Winston Churchill


Sunday, June 12, 2011

Inglorious remarks

These glorious insults are from an era before the English language got boiled down to 4-letter words......


A member of Parliament to Disraeli: "Sir, you will either die on the gallows or of some unspeakable disease."
"That depends, Sir," said Disraeli, "whether I embrace your policies or your mistress."

"He had delusions of adequacy." - Walter Kerr

"He has all the virtues I dislike and none of the vices I admire." - Winston Churchill

Lady to Winston Churchill, If I were your wife, I would give you poison. To which Churchill responded, madam, if I were your husband, I would take it!

"I have never killed a man, but I have read many obituaries with great pleasure." Clarence Darrow

"He has never been known to use a word that might send a reader to the dictionary." - William Faulkner (about Ernest Hemingway).

"Thank you for sending me a copy of your book; I'll waste no time reading it." - Moses Hadas

"I didn't attend the funeral, but I sent a nice letter saying I approved of it." - Mark Twain

"He has no enemies, but is intensely disliked by his friends.." - Oscar Wilde

"I am enclosing two tickets to the first night of my new play; bring a friend.... if you have one." - George Bernard Shaw to Winston Churchill

"Cannot possibly attend first night, will attend second.... if there is one." - Winston Churchill, in response.

"I feel so miserable without you; it's almost like having you here." - Stephen Bishop

"He is a self-made man and worships his creator." - John Bright

"I've just learned about his illness. Let's hope it's nothing trivial." - Irvin S. Cobb

"He is not only dull himself; he is the cause of dullness in others." - Samuel Johnson

"He is simply a shiver looking for a spine to run up." - Paul Keating

"In order to avoid being called a flirt, she always yielded easily." - Charles, Count Talleyrand

"He loves nature in spite of what it did to him." - Forrest Tucker

"Why do you sit there looking like an envelope without any address on it?" - Mark Twain

"His mother should have thrown him away and kept the stork." - Mae West

"Some cause happiness wherever they go; others, whenever they go...” - Oscar Wilde

"He uses statistics as a drunken man uses lamp-posts... for support rather than illumination." - Andrew Lang (1844-1912)

"He has Van Gogh's ear for music." - Billy Wilder

"I've had a perfectly wonderful evening. But this wasn't it." - Groucho Marx

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Friday, June 10, 2011

Continued to take personal inventory ...













todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for this writing from Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 90.

"It is a spiritual axiom that every time we are disturbed, no matter what the cause, there is something wrong with us. If somebody hurts us and we are sore, we are in the wrong also. But are there no exceptions to this rule? What about 'justifiable' anger? If somebody cheats us, aren't we entitled to be mad? Can't we be properly angry with self-righteous folk? For us of A.A. these are dangerous exceptions. We have found that justified anger ought to be left to those better qualified to handle it."

I was reading this with a sponsee yesterday and realized that I had better take a look at myself and my relationship with my partner. I've been a little angry and resentful with him this week. And I haven't been practicing what I preach.
Shit.


The only thing necessary for evil to triumph
is for enough good men to do nothing.
- Edmund Burke

Thursday, June 09, 2011

The easier softer way











todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I no longer have to waste so much energy finding reasons to do the next wrong thing

for rigorous honesty in all my affairs

for my health. I'm overweight by 30 pounds but so far I seem to remain fairly healthy. My Peripheral Artery Disease is 75% better since I stopped smoking and began working out 4 years ago. I hope to become willing to improve my diet so I can take some poundage off.

that I heard this in a meeting --- "I'd rather someone else beat me up when I screw up because at least they will know when to stop."

Every wall is a door.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson


Wednesday, June 08, 2011

early morning thoughts






todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I will have the honor of listening to a sponsee's 5th step today

for the similarities and the differences

that my control issues have really improved over the past year or two; it's such a process!

to know that the grass is always greener on the other side until I have to mow it



Appreciate again and again, freshly and naively,
the basic goods of life, with awe,
pleasure, wonder and even ecstasy,
however stale these experiences may have become to others.
- Abraham Maslow

Tuesday, June 07, 2011

experience should not be discounted

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for a very inspiring AA discussion meeting about (of all things) -- failure. A concept many of us (certainly me) know about. We talked about a different attitude concerning failure. That there is no failure and no success -- only our experience. I've heard numerous times that all of my experiences (the good and the bad) make me who I am today. In that sense, failure becomes an asset. So what could have been a whiny meeting became very uplifting. Wow, I love my fellow alkies!

for an overall better attitude toward life than I had before I stopped drinking

for American Pickers, a show on The History Channel this year. It's about 2 guys who travel the countryside in their truck, stopping at old barns and farms to see what junk they might be able to buy and then resell for a profit. I love this kind of thing and would love to do something like that. I would not enjoy the process of having to sell all that stuff though. Maybe I'll just stick with watching them on the telly. LOL



Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
- Marianne Williamson

Monday, June 06, 2011

A look at sidecars (this week)





todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I rarely find a need to be somebody else

to possess some knowledge of the insidiousness of jealousy

that I'm physically well (again). I got sick on Saturday with the same 18-hour bug I had a few weeks ago. I missed both of my Saturday AA meetings. It marked only about the 12th day since I got sober that I didn't attend an AA meeting. I've missed 12 days out 2831 days of being sober. I'm proud of that. Thank you. (If I were still drinking and still alive, I would not have missed that many days of drinking)

that we seem to have lived through 105 degree temperatures here yesterday


Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm.
- Winston Churchill

Sunday, June 05, 2011

Wow!

Waive Bay shore-break surfing pioneer, husband, and father of two, Clark Little has gained nationwide recognition for his photography on National Television..

It all started in 2007 when Clark 's wife wanted a nice piece of art to decorate a wall.

Voluntarily, Clark grabbed a camera, jumped in the water, and starting snapping away capturing the beauty and power of monstrous Hawaiian waves from the inside out.

" Clark 's view" is a unique view of the ocean that most will only
be able to experience safely on land while studying one of Clark 's photos.













Saturday, June 04, 2011

Friday, June 03, 2011

Thanks for dropping in ...





todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for a first-time newcomer to the noon AA meeting yesterday. I was proud and inspired to hear the shares by my fellow alkies.

for those who need help and aren't afraid to seek it

that my own little world of martyrdom has diminished more and more over the last few years

that Houston has been spared the violent weather that has hit so many areas of the country; instead, we're in the 4th month of a severe drought


If you wait to do everything until you're sure it's right,
you'll probably never do much of anything.

- Win Borden


Thursday, June 02, 2011

But seriously folks ...







todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I have not relapsed (yet) from my sober life

for many frequent reminders that I have a deadly disease; something I can easily take for granted

that I have a treatment for that disease but it must be applied continuously

for the times when people tell me about how they have seen me change. I guess Ineed that validation from time to time because I just don't recognize it all the time.



The greatest mistake you can make in life
is to be continually fearing you will make one.
- Elbert Hubbard




Wednesday, June 01, 2011

Today's words are very filtered.




todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

to remember how life once was and know that I never have to go there again!

that I had enough conviction to NOT be a doormat; it wasn't pretty, but I got my point across (but damn, I hate confrontations)

that I got to chair some noon AA meetings in May and I really enjoyed the responses during the discussions we had

that I have respect for most people, until they show me I shouldn't



Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
- Tenzin Gyatso, the 14th Dalai Lama


Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Progress, Not Perfection




todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I'm not crazy, just a bit weird at times

for the Memorial Day picnice yesterday sponsored by Lambda Center; there were about 60-70 of us and waaaaaaaaay too much food

that most AA events have more than enough food

that I get more and more fixed, almost every day


Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy.
- Leo Buscaglia


Monday, May 30, 2011

Ain't it the TRUTH!

I saw this today and wanted to post it ..........


It is the VETERAN,
not the preacher,
who has given us freedom of religion.

It is the VETERAN,
not the reporter,
who has given us freedom of the press.

It is the VETERAN,
not the poet,
who has given us freedom of speech.

It is the VETERAN,
not the campus organizer,
who has given us freedom to assemble.

It is the VETERAN,
not the lawyer,
who has given us the right to a fair trial.

It is the VETERAN,
not the politician,
Who has given us the right to vote.

Memorial Day




todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I don't have to work today (well, I'm retired anyway)

that I have let go of many old ideas and replaced them with new ones

that I have the steps to guide me through my low spots and high spots


for the countless men and women who have served their country


Worry is the interest paid by those who borrow trouble.
- George Washington

Sunday, May 29, 2011

The Cat & the Dolphins

This video is really amazing.

Saturday, May 28, 2011

It's what you scatter ...

I was at the corner grocery store buying some early potatoes... I noticed a small boy, delicate of bone and feature, ragged but clean, hungrily apprising a basket of freshly picked green peas.

I paid for my potatoes but was also drawn to the display of fresh green peas. I am a pushover for creamed peas and new potatoes.

Pondering the peas, I couldn't help overhearing the conversation between Mr. Miller (the store owner) and the ragged boy next to me.

'Hello Barry, how are you today?'

'H'lo, Mr. Miller. Fine, thank ya. Jus' admirin' them peas. They sure look good.'

'They are good, Barry. How's your Ma?'
'Fine. Gittin' stronger alla' time.'
'Good. Anything I can help you with?'
'No, Sir. Jus' admirin' them peas.'
'Would you like to take some home?' asked Mr. Miller.

'No, Sir. Got nuthin' to pay for 'em with.'

'Well, what have you to trade me for some of those peas?'

'All I got's my prize marble here.'

'Is that right? Let me see it', said Miller.

'Here 'tis. She's a dandy.'

'I can see that. Hmm mmm, only thing is this one is blue and I sort of go for red. Do you have a red one like this at home?' the store owner asked.

'Not zackley but almost.'

'Tell you what. Take this sack of peas home with you and next trip this way let me look at that red marble'. Mr. Miller told the boy.

'Sure will. Thanks Mr. Miller.'

Mrs. Miller, who had been standing nearby, came over to help me.

With a smile she said, 'There are two other boys like him in our community, all three are in very poor circumstances. Jim just loves to bargain with them for peas, apples, tomatoes, or whatever.

When they come back with their red marbles, and they always do, he decides he doesn't like red after all and he sends them home with a bag of produce for a green marble or an orange one, when they come on their next trip to the store.'

I left the store smiling to myself, impressed with this man. A short time later I moved to Colorado , but I never forgot the story of this man, the boys, and their bartering for marbles.

Several years went by, each more rapid than the previous one. Just recently I had occasion to visit some old friends in that Idaho community and while I was there learned that Mr. Miller had died. They were having his visitation that evening and knowing my friends wanted to go, I agreed to accompany them. Upon arrival at the mortuary we fell into line to meet the relatives of the deceased and to offer whatever words of comfort we could.

Ahead of us in line were three young men. One was in an army uniform and the other two wore nice haircuts, dark suits and white shirts...all very professional looking. They approached Mrs. Miller, standing composed and smiling by her husband's casket.

Each of the young men hugged her, kissed her on the cheek, spoke briefly with her and moved on to the casket. Her misty light blue eyes followed them as, one by one; each young man stopped briefly and placed his own warm hand over the cold pale hand in the casket. Each left the mortuary awkwardly, wiping his eyes.

Our turn came to meet Mrs. Miller. I told her who I was and reminded her of the story from those many years ago and what she had told me about her husband's bartering for marbles. With her eyes glistening, she took my hand and led me to the casket.

'Those three young men who just left were the boys I told you about.

They just told me how they appreciated the things Jim 'traded' them. Now, at last, when Jim could not change his mind about color or size....they came to pay their debt.'

'We've never had a great deal of the wealth of this world,' she confided, 'but right now, Jim would consider himself the richest man in Idaho ..'

With loving gentleness she lifted the lifeless fingers of her deceased husband... Resting underneath were three exquisitely shined red marbles.

The Moral:
We will not be remembered by our words, but by our kind deeds. Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath.

Friday, May 27, 2011

Did I say awareness?





todAAy I AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for time spent with friends

that I don't live on a derseted island. I used to wish I did at times, when I wanted to isolate. I had to learn how NOT to isolate. With that knowledge, I was rewarded with a new freedom.

for the people who trust me enough to share their life with me

for awareness, awareness and awareness


Worry often gives a small thing a big shadow.
- Swedish Proverb



Thursday, May 26, 2011

Wisdom comes in many forms





todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

for awareness (this seems to be the single-most important aspect of recovery)

for the principle behind step 10 -- perseverance!

that I'll never be a politician; I am committed to being an honest person

that I'm a rule follower even when I don't agree with the rule

for awareness, and then some


Security is mostly a superstition.
It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it.
Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure.
Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing.
- Helen Keller


Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Things on my brain cell...





todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that my life is rarely as serious as it may seem; it helps to remember Rule 62

for the evolution of my concept of my Higher Power; I don't try to define or even describe it because that would only limit my concept

for patience and the rewards that come with it

that my mom-in-law is here visiting for 3 weeks. We get along great, probably because I'm sober! She's not legally my mom-in-law because my partner and I are not allowed to be married like most of the population. In fact, if I were dying in the hospital, he would not even be allowed to visit me. Oh well, don't get me started. LOL


Courage and perseverance have a magical talisman,
before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish into air.

- John Quincy Adams


Tuesday, May 24, 2011

I'm back!

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I'm back online.

I could not gain access to my Blogger dashboard until a few minutes ago. I brought a computer expert over to diagnose and fix the problem. Of course, as I showed him what was wrong, the problem fixed itself. This was after 5 days of it not working. I had done everything I could think of, but my solutions were as bad as the problem.

Hopefully, you can find a message in all this.

I can.


We Learn...
10% of what we read,
20% of what we hear,
30% of what we see,
50% of what we see and hear,
70% of what we discuss,
80% of what we experience,
95% of what we teach others.
- William Glasser

Thursday, May 19, 2011

striking out





todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I am I'm almost always willing to be an ear for those who need to talk. This is NOT the dAAve of old.

that I no longer give out I'm a little better about not giving out unsolicited advice

that I rarely never drink alcohol any more

that I went to my Al Anon meeting last night for the first time this month in weeks

for Abraham Lincoln. He was has been my hero during my growing up period, which happens to be continuing.



To go against the dominant thinking of your friends,
of most of the people you see every day,
is perhaps the most difficult act of heroism you can perform.

- Theodore H. White

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

this is a test






todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful


that there's always a next right thing and a next wrong thing for me to do. It's my choice.

for the ability of Mr SponsorPants to put his experience, strength and hope into words that I can understand and identify with

for change -- in all its forms

for the truth


Love is the only force capable of transforming an enemy into friend.
- Martin Luther King, Jr.


Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Laying it out in front of me




todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that it only took about 3 months (50 AA meetings?) to realize that alcohol just might be part of the reason for the mental breakdown I was experiencing in the summer of 2003; I thought that my drinking to oblivion every night was the only thing getting me through my problems

for some new ways to respond to old triggers

that I know the best and most efficient ways to do just about everything, but I no longer have to claim it outloud (just pretend you didn't read this)

for the radio announcers who taught me the game of baseball every night when I was a kid. I didn't play on a team; instead I learned the game by watching and listening. Those guys (Gene Elston and Loel Passe) were the best I've ever heard at describing the action and explaining why a particular player did a certain thing.


May love and laughter light your days, and warm your heart and home.
May good and faithful friends be yours, wherever you may roam.
May peace and plenty bless your world with joy that long endures.
May all life's passing seasons bring the best to you and yours.
- Irish Blessing


Monday, May 16, 2011

Look at us!






todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful


for the little things
and the big things

for the new people I meet, nearly every day

that I'll get to experience more sobriety today; I'll probably learn something about recovery that I need to know

that we had another highly successful fundraiser for the Houston Roundup

for friends that I get to enjoy time with at Astros games (that's baseball)



Joy is what happens to us when we allow ourselves to recognize how good things really are.
- Marianne Williamson

Saturday, May 14, 2011

A very sweet Marine story

Orville Smith, a store manager for Best Buy in Augusta, Georgia, told police he observed a male customer, later identified as Tyrone Jackson of Augusta, on surveillance cameras putting a laptop computer under his jacket... When confronted the man became irate, knocked down an employee, drew a knife and ran for the door.

Outside on the sidewalk were four Marines collecting toys for the "Toys for Tots" program. Smith said the Marines stopped the man, but he stabbed one of the Marines, Cpl. Phillip Duggan, in the back; the injury did not appear to be severe.

After Police and an ambulance arrived at the scene Cpl. Duggan was transported for treatment.

The subject was also transported to the local hospital with two broken arms, a broken ankle, a broken leg, several missing teeth, possible broken ribs, multiple contusions, assorted lacerations, a broken nose and a broken jaw ... injuries he sustained when he slipped and fell off of the curb after stabbing the Marine.

That was one well-written police report.

Friday, May 13, 2011

Wassup?

Like others, I have experienced blogger.com difficulties these past 2 days.

I notice that my Thursday post has disappeared. No big deal. Hopefully, all is well and back to normal.

Have a lovely weekend!!

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

some people I know ...





todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I'm grateful. In my drinking days, I thought I was lucky because I had such a great life. Today, I'm just grateful for all of my experiences and that I'm still around.

that I get to do things that most alcoholics (not in recovery) don't have the opportunity to ever do

for all the guys and gals in my life who have made an impact on me. How could any of us ever know how many have had an impact on us?

that I know myself a little better than I did just a few days ago


Wherever there is a human being, there is an opportunity for a kindness.
- Seneca

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Consistency




todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I am able to be consistent with the recovery meetings I attend

for the wisdom and experience of the people with whom I choose to surround myself

that I can give back to others so easily, but I have to show up in order to do that

that I am able to be consistent with this blog



If we want to direct our lives, we must take control of our consistent actions. It's not what we do once in a while that shapes our lives, but what we do consistently.
- Anthony Robbins


Monday, May 09, 2011

(more)


Size does matter.



todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that when everything is taken into account, there is absolutely nothing wrong in my life today. There are, however, somethings that need (more) adjusting.

that after getting sober and more clear-headed, many facts have become (more) obvious to me

that I get to learn (more) about my friends and acquaintances every week when I attend speaker meetings

that I know there is rarely enough of want I want; I nearly always need (more)

Joy is what happens to us when we allow ourselves to recognize how good things really are.
- Marianne Williamson

Sunday, May 08, 2011

The debate goes on

Though Minnesota politicians voted to put a gay marriage ban on the ballot in 2012 yesterday, the eloquent words of one of the measure's detractors have caught the nation's attention.

Rep. Steve Simon, DFL-St. Louis Park, gave an impassioned speech asking lawmakers on the House committee not to place a gay marriage ban in the state's Constitution. (Gay marriage is already outlawed in the state.) He also objected to the religious tone of the debate, as most of the people testifying in favor of the ballot measure were faith leaders or using religious arguments.





Saturday, May 07, 2011

Friday, May 06, 2011

Silliness on 5+6=11

There. It's fixed.


todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that it happened for me when it happened because it was finally time to happen

that I don't know what today will look like until it's tomorrow and then it won't matter

that the new people I meet today will be my old friends tomorrow

that I can just sit here and think of these silly things or else get up from the computer and get ready for my 6:30 meeting on my 2,800th consecutive day of living sober.
Bye.

Life is too important to be taken seriously.
- Oscar Wilde

Thursday, May 05, 2011

read below ...

There. It's fixed.


todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I don't have to understand why things work the way they do; it's more important to know that things DO work

that often, all I need to do is listen

for peaks and valleys



Your life is the sum result of all the choices you make, both consciously and unconsciously. If you can control the process of choosing, you can take control of all aspects of your life. You can find the freedom that comes from being in charge of yourself.
- Robert Foster Bennett


Wednesday, May 04, 2011

a different slant


There. It's fixed.



todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful


for another gentle reminder that I'm not getting any younger; intellectually of course, I know this. But sometimes I need physical evidence and usually my HP is more than willing to provide that evidence. Damnit.

that we read Bill's Story yesterday morning. A timeless piece of writing. If you have not read it in the past, let's say 6 months, pick up your book and read it again. It's even better if you read outloud in a group of more than one. If you don't know what I'm talking about, don'tworryboutit.

that awareness of my flaws really cuts down on my denial of them

for my sponsee who get it. I am working with some guys who are willing to do whatever it takes and it's a real pleasure to know them and watch them.


The key to happiness is inner peace. The greatest obstacles to inner peace are disturbing emotions such as anger, attachment, fear and suspicion, while love and compassion and a sense of universal responsibility are the sources of peace and happiness. - Dalai Lama

Tuesday, May 03, 2011

musing

There. It's fixed.



todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I have yet found an excuse to drink alcohol since the day I got sober in 2003

that my little illness only lasted about 20 hours. Amazing how quickly the human body can recover.

that it took me a day to sort my feelings about the killing of America's number 1 enemy. I have no problem in the killing of bin Laden because this IS a war in which we're engaged. But I can't bring myself to celebrate the event. The following quote was passed around Facebook yesterday and it pretty well sums up how I feel ......

"I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives, but I will not rejoice in the death of one, not even an enemy. Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that." - Martin Luther King, Jr


The only thing that will redeem mankind is cooperation. - Bertrand Russell

Monday, May 02, 2011

I'm OK, I'm OK








I attended a collector car event this weekend. This car belonged to Bobby Darin back in the day. It's obviously a one-of-a-kind.





todAAy i AAm grAAteful and thAAnkful


that I have no need nor desire to go to bars and clubs any longer. I spent several decades going to bars. I'm constantly amazed at the number of my recovery friends who still spend time at bars. Many of them have one or more relapses as part of their history. hmmmmmmm.

for a lovely night of sober birthday celebrations on Saturday.

that even though I'm sick with flu-like symptoms, I am sober with recovery-type symptoms

Live with intention.
Walk to the edge.
Listen hard.
Practice wellness.
Play with abandon.
Laugh.
Choose with no regret.
Appreciate your friends.
Continue to learn.
Do what you love.
Live as if this is all there is.
- Mary Anne Radmacher


Sunday, May 01, 2011

How Great Thou Art

by Carrie Underwood