There are no coincidences

We lived together for over a year. My last year of drinking. As I spiralled downward towards my alcoholic bottom, much of my time was spent in bars. As a result, we didn't do a lot of fun things together or go very many places. No movies, fun parks, rarely even ate out together, except at my bar.

While Hayden is here this month, I have vowed to make up for that. Saturday night at 9:30pm, we actually went to Starbuck's and sat outside enjoying non-alcoholic drinks at night. First time I've done that with him. Or anyone else, for that matter.

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I'll be working the coffee bar @ Lambda today -- the place will be packed for meetings because of the holiday

that when my mind goes to very uncomfortable places, my mouth doesn't always follow

that sometimes I actually remember to do the things I've been taught to do when I need to do them

that I no longer depend on anybody to make me happy or to keep me happy

that I got dressed to go workout this morning at 5am, then remembered that the gym is closed today, for Labor Day. At least I made the effort. Progress. LOL

for the Courage to tell a friend of Hayden's that he's in town and wants to say howdy to him; the Courage part is that we have a mutual dislike for each other. I ran into this guy at Starbuck's while coffee-ing with Matt. He gave me his phone number and said to tell Hayden to call him. Had I not let this guy know that Hayden is in town, I would have owed Hayden an amends. Now, I don't have to feel guilty. Wow! I love this program called recovery!!

for my new Crocs

"If you want to make peace, you don't talk to your friends. You talk to your enemies."
-Moshe Dayan