Friday, April 04, 2008

It's Friday, for what that's worth.

This has been one of my toughest weeks in dealing with life since I got sober in 2003. I suppose I could find all kinds of reasons, but they would sound more like excuses. It probably boils down to my fear of this huge mortgage hanging over my head. I need to get used to it.
However ...

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful

that I haven't had a thought about drinking

for overwhelming proof that I have a mental disease

that I know it will all pass, eventually

to be aware of how much I dislike confrontations

that today is 3-meeting Friday for me (3 AA meetings by 1pm)

that our townhouse officially went on the market yesterday; I think it's on 3 local real estate websites. We had several inquiries during the afternoon just from passersby, so that's encouraging.

Kindness makes a fellow feel good, whether it’s being done to him or by him.
-Frank A. Clark


Bill said...

I heard a man with a quarter century of sobriety say "Sympathy will kill an alcoholic."
So I'll just say that I baked a strawberry-buttermilk pie, and if you drop by I'll give you some.

Pam said...

Oh lordy...I gotta get to Bills house.
I think we are supposed to be working our mortgages down as we get older, I don't seem to be following that rule either.

Mary Christine said...

I have a large honkin' mortgage and it is a burden. I thought it would get easier over the years, but so far it really hasn't. I really miss the days when I lived in a townhouse and could do just about anything I wanted to.
Not what you wanted to hear, is it? Sorry.

Scott W said...

Yet yesterday you seemed so chipper.

Gwen R said...

I can say honestly the best things that have happened to me in sobriety have been the hardest as well. All those fears have pushed me to work the program harder and get closer to my HP.

Yes we have a big mortgage and crazy ass taxes but we have each other and the greatest friends and we have a shit load of fun through all the stress.

Love and hugs and all that good stuff.


Bill said...

That ad has me imagining the following conversation:

She: Good grief! Why are you putting that thing on?

He: Oh, it's just in case you're a whore. Nothing to worry about, sweetheart. Now spread 'em.

Tab said...

Yep nothing like big people stuff to test our sobriety Dave.Mortages are scary but so is homelessness.
You can make it all work out with a little time and adjustments.
I love that you admit it scares you though because most of us can relate..Life is so chalked full of this big people stuff the more we get older but you have a good head on your shoulders my friend..Remember that.

Zane-nawwaa said...

Mortgage! Some days I yearn for the days of renting when I could just pick up the phone and say
FIX IT. Now I just park myself in front of a mirror and say Fuck it.

Todd HellsKitchen said...

Love that graphic!

Syd said...

With the ridiculous mortgage payment there is the option of moving to a smaller or less expensive place. I have a low mortgage but a large house and acreage. Sometimes I would just like to live on a boat.

peanut said...

Dear dAAve,

I like what Mary Catherine responded. Not to be a drip but, please be careful. These are hard times and who knows what is ahead?

You know I love you and wish you the best. I just want to courage to fix up my home as you did. I must pray for the courage. I know I would enjoy my life and home so much more if I took care of repairs and modifications.

I will pray for the courage and patience to get quotes.

You are one of my heros you wonderful man !

Love to you,

Trailboss said...

I'm thinking of you Dave.

sober Chick said...

I hate confrontation, gets me all shaky. I suppose some people thrive on it, but the ones I know are drunk.

hope your meetings filled you with what you needed today.

Boston B. said...

i'm sending you good thoughts!