Early on in AA I heard about changing my behaviour. They said,
"It's not old behaviour if you're still doing it."
Well, that made sense. I could identify with that. Today, with 2 years of sobriety looming in the near future, I have changed a lot of old behaviours.
For instance, there's a couple of people at my home AA center that really push my buttons. In the old days, they would have pissed me off to no end. I would have either (a) fought back verbally and very loudly (b) totally ignored them at all costs or (c) avoided them at every chance.
How much have I changed? I tell both of them hello every time I see them. I try my very hardest to be nice. I don't have to engage in conversation with them or hang out with them. But I do feel responsible to show some respect for them. That's part of my program. I have to remember that they're trying to stay sober and recover too. I have to remember that we are all at different places in different mindsets. I have to remember that their day may not have been as good as mine.
My reaction to others has changed.
My thinking still has a long way to go.
3 comments:
My! You are a busy bitty blogger. Call me and let me know your moniker for IMing. Queen Noor
I need to be reminded of that..It has been hard for me when those 2 people in my world have used me a as a target for their stuff..Your blog has helped me in so many ways.Thanks my fav.funny man.I will be there to here your story and looking forward to it !!xoxox's
Of course, it helps to remember that some are sicker than others. I didn't know you before, but I like the you that has changed.
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